MEN... if u cant live with him u sure can live without him

"Love has not always been so lovely
So many lonely nights and wet pillows
At the end of the road it all hurt so badAll hurt so bad
So many heartaches
So much painIt all remains the same
I've never been enough for one man
Never been pretty enough
Never been cool enough
It always remains the same
I've never been good enough for one man
Maybe I just need to be alone
I can't hurt myself
I can't not be good enough for myself
The heartaches make so many scars inside
I'm so bruisedIt all hurts so bad
But it all remains the same
The facts aint never gonna change"


I saw that in a friend's away msg on AIM. The sad part is I'd say at least 50% of the females on my buddylist seem to convey the same message night after night after night. My question is... why do we let men have that much power over us when it comes to love and relationships. We spend our nights crying while he's catching up on his beauty rest. I say... CHEER UP AND GO SHOPPING! The man who is worth your tears wont make you cry! Never feel like you aren't good enough just because that fool can't see a GREAT thing staring him right in his ugly face lol. Men are blind until maybe hmmmm age 30 lol. Let them walk in darkness if they want to. There are to many fish in the sea to try to attain the stubborn one who just wont catch the bait!

~toodles~

LOVE LIVE LIFE

Making mistakes is a part of life.
I guess its time for me to learn to start living without regrets.
I do alot of things without really thinking about it and then It comes back to bite me in the rear.


....
Why do I feel so miserable all of a sudden? One minute I'm up and laughing and just that quick I'm back down in the dumps. I've been feeding my carnal so much that I've neglected my spirit. And that is def. a problem.


gnite

WHY is there an entire heap of these disgustingly negative people around me. I'd be wrong to start airing people out wouldn't I???

lol... They are SOOOOOOOOOO LUCKY Im not the b*tch everyone thinks I am.


Lets talk about liars. There is nothing I hate more than a liar. People who are full of empty promises, fairy tales, gossip, etc. If that isnt bad enough I know some people who steal and lie simultaneously lol. Double Whammy. That there is amazing! I couldn't pull that one off. lol. [If you feel guilty, I'm probably refering to you and u should take that up with Jesus and get ur sad life together]


And to SJU High School... Im going to need people to grow up and graduate. Stop allowing other people to deter you from everything you're SUPPOSED to be doing.

I have more to say but I need to complete my homework and hit the sack... im already an hour and change past my bedtime.

dueces LIARS :)

TEACH ME... HOW TO LOVE

Show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart
[Boy] I’m so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me... how to love

I was always taught to be strong
Never let them think you care at all
Let no one get close to me
Before you and me
I done shared things with you girl about my past that I’d never tell
To anyone else
Just keep it to myself
[Boy] I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this
But see I’m really trying to change now
Wanna love you better, show me how
I’m trying desperately
Baby, please work with me

- Musiq Soulchild


This track hits home. Its time to just be honest rite? Here I go.

Truth is, alot of the time I hide my feelings behind my sarcasm just hoping that people just GET IT. Too bad alot of them miss it. Lets not get it twisted, I mean ALOT of the things I say (lol).

When it comes to me + him relationships, articulation is always an issue. How do I tell him that I think he's great and that I'd really love to be the lady on his arm without scaring him off? I really honestly don't know what it means to love someone other than myself, family, and friends. I think I really am scared to let people IN that way. I guess when the right one comes along he'll change everything. Until then...


Where's the party!?!?!? :)