A closet full of clothes and we say we've got nothing to wear. Some of those clothes still have tags on them. Someone on the other side of town has 1 coat & 1 pair of shoes. The next time you think of complaining about having "nothing to wear" CONSIDER THIS

Soooooooo Yeah. All Im gonna say is to do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Point blank period. The bible is my foundation for right vs. wrong. PERIOD! The bible told ME (mi nah kno bout you) that I should love my neighbor as I love myself, give unto the poor, feed those who are hungry, etc.
I've done all that and I've just realized that even though I do all the GOOD to other people that I can, it wont always be reciprocated. I used to get mad about it but tonight I found that just because other people dont always give back to me the way I give to them has NOTHING to do with me as a person. I've done my job and GOD will deal with those who blatantly do wrong by not only me but others as well.


*Note to self:
Fool me once, SHAME ON YOU
Fool me twice, SHAME ON ME!

Its okay to play the fool. Just don't play it TWICE!

Its soooooooo close...

...GRADUATION that is!

I really can't believe I have ONE more year to go before Im out of college!!! I mean everything went by so fast. Im a little scared to be honest. For me, its kind of like ... okay, I graduate and then what? I dunno where Im going, what I want. Im just sorta "goin' w/ the flow."

Anyways... Me being 19year old senior? lol. That sounds dope for real. I guess I never realized how ridiculously young I was until I suddenly became the only one in the crew under 21. See now THAT's WACK! But I guess being young, privileged, gifted, and black has its perks. Yeah, I like to toot my own horn. I deserve it! lol

MIA-YO 5/23-5/30

My 1st trip to MIA. It was pretty good. There were some "bad times" but overall it was a greatexperience and 8/10 I'd do it again. The concert was AWESOME!!!!!! Movado ROCKED! (Anywayyyyeeeeeeee). I stood in dirty sand for like 6 hours just to see this guy! I got into ALL the clubs I went to surprisingly cuz Lord knows that ID looked NOTHING like me lol. And I got real tipsy for the 1st time in life! lol. I dunno if I'll be doing THAT again. I ate good, went to the beach... it was just relaxing to get away from NY for a little while. But Im home now... Home sweet Home.

Nike Co Jp Plum Dunk

What a blow to my balls!!! I really thought they were MINE!!! I was misled. I thought the listing said 6.5 W ... I was wrong. Oh well. Maybe next time.

MY STUDY POEM LOL

From JUMP I was never all that studious.
9/10 u could find me chillin on my maximum gluteus
or rather my gluteus maximum
Why I wait so long to study is something I often fathom
Can't really understand it
Good grades, it was demanded
from my mother and others and of course, I always had to outshine my brother
I knew about this exam two weeks ago!
Now I’m up all day, with this book in my face, this sh*t is a disgrace
Terrified of failure yet I claim to be a rebel. SMH @ me. Procrasination is the devil.
So before u go to bed tonite, take some time to pray, and ask the MAN UPSTAIRS to help me get an A!

LOL. Im a loser. I made that up during finals week.

I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE

TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND PEOPLE I'VE RECENTLY MET. I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. I AM A DECIEVER. I'VE BEEN WEARING PADDED BRAS TO MAKE MY BREASTS LOOK LARGER. I AM SORRY
- THE ILLUSIONIST

Can I Talk My ---- Again!?!?!

1. I shall never be the sideline hoe!
2. She may be his number 1 and I may be his number 2 (or 9) but please believe he may never get his but i'll always get MINE! He never even fell into numerical category on my list so wat does that make him? (in the voice of the dude on the takeover track) LAMMMMMEEEEEE
3. A good man is hard to find but I can always find some good fried chicken up the block!
4. Im a P I M P. A good one, but a PIMP nonetheless.
5. Sensative boys make me sick. Pull ur skirt down and learn to take a hit, b*tch!
6. U all are so materialistic and its not even cute. Without ur gucci ur nothing. U dont kno Louis but he owns you. And can everyone get off Kelis and Pharell now? Ur milkshake is lumpy and U can't possibly be sk8board A thru Z
7. Burn all sk8boards in NY period. Mad cracks in the street! Where are u going!?!? This is NOT the bay
8. Im jus running my mouth, don't mind me. lol

Ayo School is really almost over. Ask me why I've been on chapter one since this morning and it is now 7:16pm. Talk about procrastination. I'm sitting here writing senseless and utterly pointless blogs about much of nothing lol. I bet you I'll still pull a B in the class! RIGHTEOUS!

Ima go listen to some Little Brother and Lupe and possibly take a shower cuz Im starting to FUNK ya dig!

BYE BYE JUNIOR YEAR

WOW... This really blows my mind. Im still 18 and Im a couple days away from being done with my Junior year in college. Sometimes I can't even believe it. Its not like im so rare case of a genius or anything so its like ... God must have had a reason why he gave me such favor amongst teachers my entire life.

However, lets talk about how my grades for this semester. Well, they all are looking like As and A-s except my JOU course. First of all. I already lost 10% from not doing this meeting story that was given to us so last minute! He says we can make it up and make a difference in the grade since the majority didnt do it. AND we had TWO teachers. One taught print newswriting the other taught broadcast. Broadcast was TEREEEEEBBBLLLLAAAYYY!!! (thats just my way of saying terrible). That professor has YET to give me anything over an 85 on ANYTHING I've done. She really made me feel super stupid. Im curious to see my grade for that class.

Enough about my depressing grades. Overall this year was an experience. A rather good one. I moved into a nice little apartment w/ some nice roommates. Disagreements here and there but overall the experience was great and Im looking forward to doing it again in the Fall. I grew away from some people, had a couple of fall outs, had a couple haters but all of that couldnt outweigh the good. I met some new people and I'm sooooooooo glad I met some of them. They added to my life positively.

[DOH CARE: COLLEGE CLASH PARTY]

[binghamton '06]

The parties were dope, the burdens were light, I had a job so the kick game was right lol.

Jus playin, it rhymed so I said it lol.

[BLACK MUSIC FEST '07]

[SNEAKER PIMPS '06]

Overall it was cool and I'll remember it. MIAMI is next. Im soooooooo digging it.

MEN... if u cant live with him u sure can live without him

"Love has not always been so lovely
So many lonely nights and wet pillows
At the end of the road it all hurt so badAll hurt so bad
So many heartaches
So much painIt all remains the same
I've never been enough for one man
Never been pretty enough
Never been cool enough
It always remains the same
I've never been good enough for one man
Maybe I just need to be alone
I can't hurt myself
I can't not be good enough for myself
The heartaches make so many scars inside
I'm so bruisedIt all hurts so bad
But it all remains the same
The facts aint never gonna change"


I saw that in a friend's away msg on AIM. The sad part is I'd say at least 50% of the females on my buddylist seem to convey the same message night after night after night. My question is... why do we let men have that much power over us when it comes to love and relationships. We spend our nights crying while he's catching up on his beauty rest. I say... CHEER UP AND GO SHOPPING! The man who is worth your tears wont make you cry! Never feel like you aren't good enough just because that fool can't see a GREAT thing staring him right in his ugly face lol. Men are blind until maybe hmmmm age 30 lol. Let them walk in darkness if they want to. There are to many fish in the sea to try to attain the stubborn one who just wont catch the bait!

~toodles~

LOVE LIVE LIFE

Making mistakes is a part of life.
I guess its time for me to learn to start living without regrets.
I do alot of things without really thinking about it and then It comes back to bite me in the rear.


....
Why do I feel so miserable all of a sudden? One minute I'm up and laughing and just that quick I'm back down in the dumps. I've been feeding my carnal so much that I've neglected my spirit. And that is def. a problem.


gnite

WHY is there an entire heap of these disgustingly negative people around me. I'd be wrong to start airing people out wouldn't I???

lol... They are SOOOOOOOOOO LUCKY Im not the b*tch everyone thinks I am.


Lets talk about liars. There is nothing I hate more than a liar. People who are full of empty promises, fairy tales, gossip, etc. If that isnt bad enough I know some people who steal and lie simultaneously lol. Double Whammy. That there is amazing! I couldn't pull that one off. lol. [If you feel guilty, I'm probably refering to you and u should take that up with Jesus and get ur sad life together]


And to SJU High School... Im going to need people to grow up and graduate. Stop allowing other people to deter you from everything you're SUPPOSED to be doing.

I have more to say but I need to complete my homework and hit the sack... im already an hour and change past my bedtime.

dueces LIARS :)

TEACH ME... HOW TO LOVE

Show me how to love
Show me the way to surrender my heart
[Boy] I’m so lost
Teach me how to love
How I can get my emotions involved
Teach me... how to love

I was always taught to be strong
Never let them think you care at all
Let no one get close to me
Before you and me
I done shared things with you girl about my past that I’d never tell
To anyone else
Just keep it to myself
[Boy] I know I lack affection and expressing my feelings
It took me a minute to come and admit this
But see I’m really trying to change now
Wanna love you better, show me how
I’m trying desperately
Baby, please work with me

- Musiq Soulchild


This track hits home. Its time to just be honest rite? Here I go.

Truth is, alot of the time I hide my feelings behind my sarcasm just hoping that people just GET IT. Too bad alot of them miss it. Lets not get it twisted, I mean ALOT of the things I say (lol).

When it comes to me + him relationships, articulation is always an issue. How do I tell him that I think he's great and that I'd really love to be the lady on his arm without scaring him off? I really honestly don't know what it means to love someone other than myself, family, and friends. I think I really am scared to let people IN that way. I guess when the right one comes along he'll change everything. Until then...


Where's the party!?!?!? :)

I love the way people take advantage of my kindness. On the real, I'm far too kind to people. Time and time again I keep giving people chance after chance after chance. Keep doing for people and never on the recieving side of the stick. I'm sick of it. Totally fed up. You play me once, shame on u. Play me twice, shame on me. Damn that finger always pointing at me! No more miss nice girl. POOM is back and in full effect. NO is the new response for 2007. Don't ask me for anything unless you're a part of my family or a part of my ribcage.

I just need to do some SERIOUS re-evaluating.

People don't change... U simply one day see the person they really are.

SHOP AROUND

Just because you've become a young woman now
There's still some things that you don't understand now
Before you ask some guy for his hand now
Keep your freedom for as long as you can now
My mama told me You better shop around

There's some things that I want you to know now
Just as sure as the wind's gonna blow now
The men'll come and the men are gonna go now
Before you tell 'em that you love 'em so now
My mama told me You better shop around

Try to get yourself a bargain, girl
Don't be sold on the very first one
Good-looking guys come a dime a dozen
Try to find you one who's gonna give you true loving

Before you take a man and say I do now
Make sure he's in love with you now
Make sure that his love is true now
I hate to see you feeling sad and blue now
My mama told me You better shop around

-Smokey Robinson

GUY TALK W/ THE GUYS

So I basically already know that majority of the relationships I enter will eventually lead to me being the one left to dry (like its always been). I know sex is a big thing for most guys but I honestly don't see a reason to throw it at every man I meet. (I applaud the hoes... u all are very brave). I want my first time to be with someone I love (like REALLY love). But neway, I've talked about this before. But yea...

I had some conversations with some of the guys cuz for a minute I was like "that can't be the only reason. I gotta be doin sumthn else" but I was reassured. I am as "bad" as I think I am. Im freaking awesome and if they can't deal with my choices then its their loss... not mine. (DIRTBAGS)

[THE FEEDBACK]

ThePerfctMisfit (7:33:37 PM): i give em chances n then they leave me all dry once i start liking them
WatChuSoMadAtNow (6:34:30 PM): well look on the bright side
WatChuSoMadAtNow (6:34:55 PM): just off of my experiences from talking to u .......i no that who ever does get the chance to get with u an take it to the nex level
WatChuSoMadAtNow (6:35:13 PM): has to be a special dude
WatChuSoMadAtNow (6:35:29 PM): cuz tha average is getting nowea

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Relldakidd (9:35:07 AM): If they can't see what a grrrrrrrrreat*tony the tiger* person u are
Relldakidd (9:35:13 AM): Then they don't deserve u
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Jeanavenue (12:30:34 PM): You know chaun u really wifey material u bet not settle for no lame dude



Well in other news... we're planning a trip to Miami for memorial day weekend. This should be super. I need to get away ya know. See some new people and jus chilllllllllll.... Oh n i found some new heat... awwwwwww man


Next blog Next blog!!! lolol


Oh and my secret sister gave me a book to read... awwwwwweeeeeee. Get my spiritual life in order. "Woman thou art loosed" by T.D. Jakes. Ima start tonite after accounting homework.

-peace

THIS IS SOOO TRUE ABOUT ME LOL

Gemini - Your Love Profile

Your positive traits: Your lively, outgoing attitude attracts people to you everywhere you go.You can talk your way into - and out of - any situation you desire.You're adaptable enough to flirt with anyone - and people tend to fight over you. Your negative traits: You get easily bored in relationships, and tend to jump from person to person.You tend to be a bit of a player - and have a high tolerance for drama in relationships.Not the most empathetic person, you tend to tell lovers to "get over" their problems. Your ideal partner: Is intelligent and quick witted enough to keep you interested.Is a bit of a shape shifter, providing you with the variety you crave.An open minded person, who's willing to have a non-traditional relationship. Your dating style: Exciting. If your date shows you a new experience (like Egyptian food or scuba diving), you're very happy. Your seduction style: Experimental: it's rare that you try the same thing twice.Hot and cold... sometimes you're just not into the whole sex thing. Tips for the future: Settle down a little. Sometimes good things come with time - so don't let people go so fast.Acknowledge that you're a player and flirt. If your mate can't live with this, find someone who can.Give your partner a little more attention. You don't have to be a social butterfly all the time. Best color to attract mate: Sunny yellow Best day for a date: Wednesday

What's" Your Love Profile?

Im young, bright, and bold yet I still keep holding back from doing EVERYTHING CHAUNNA want's to do in life.

Someone once said "Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure."

Sometimes...ok, ALOT of the time, Im scared to try and fail... or maybe try and be great at something. Either way, there's pressure.

I know I can never turn back the hands of time and un-do all the the WRONG I've done. I can only work towards attempting to make my life better.

Staying prayerful & focused is my only hope. And I've really got to stop listening to everyone's advice except my OWN.

*I always find myself BACK on this topic lol*

I need a new book to read... Any suggestions???

Why the HOES get all the LOVE...topic of discussion

Sushil said in our convo...

ThePerfctMisfit (10:17:25 AM): People make me feel like its a sin to be a virgin
Drsus625 (10:17:57 AM): don't pay that no mind chaunna seriously
ThePerfctMisfit (10:18:09 AM): its always the ones I like that can't handle it
Drsus625 (10:18:13 AM): cuz if its dudes saying it they just mad cuz they can't get it
Drsus625 (10:18:28 AM): and if its girls they just mad cuz they can't get it back


Vlad said...

"because when guys are young all they looking for is a good time
and a hoe is gonna "always" show them a "good time"

** Response to Ms. Misfit, Hoes always get our time becuz as young men we are looking for a good time, a quick nut, in and out like a robbery... But do understand we do know she's a Hoe and all we'll do is string her out and have her Gassed. Do understand that we know the difference, aint no Hoe ever taking me away from wifey!!! And that's a fact, (He smirks)**A Woman??? That right therr is a Hoe!(Vladimir S.)


lmao @ in and out like a robbery


But yeah, in response to that, the game is wack. The niggas are wack, the hoes are wack, their lives are wack and I'm great!

sooooooooooo F-U

:)

Peace

JUST SOME NOVELS I READ OVER THE SUMMER

I meant to post them a long time ago but never got around to it... Finals are over so Im back on my reading grind.

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[so was this one]





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