Just Writing...

Geesh... I havent been here in a long time. Oooh I know wat I can discuss! This whole sk8r/vintage movement. OMG!!!!!!! Has to be one of the most annoying fashion eras ever in life! So many people hopped on this one. Never in life did I think looking like a NERD would be considered "cool" or "fashionable" lol. I'm not even hating on the people who originally were like that and was all up on the dunks and blah blah blah and buy the REAL stuff... but those followers tick me the hell off! (I been a sneaker lover since my toddler days so hop off me!)


I peeped this one girl who tried to go for the "non matching look" and just ruined it. EVERY PATTERN DOESNT GO TOGETHER SWEETIE!!! She thought she was DOING IT! lololol.

Nehooo... Enuff of this talk, Im getting angry writing about it. Lets talk about boys. BOYS = STUPID... THE END hehehehe


Sike nah there aint much to them for me as of now so lemme jus end this blog here. I gta get started on my presentation. Ezzzzzzzz

Friends... but why??

So what exactly is a Friend?

friend ( P ) Pronunciation Key (frnd)n.
A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

Ehhh... yea whatever. Knows, Likes, Trusts... I dont know about that trust part. I can't throw that word "friend" around so loosely. My friends are my mom & my brother then. Probably the only people i can FULLY put trust in. But who needs friends when u got ur trusty laptop?? J/p. But like seriously people got me twisted. Just because I go to the mall with u doesnt make us best friends. Yea, u cool people but I'm not about to crawl up ya rear. Don't get me wrong. I LOVE to hang around good people and politic and socialize. Thats not a problem. But some people just get too close too fast and wind up getting their feelings hurt in the end b/c they THOUGHT they knew that person oh so well and they didnt. People carry alot of baggage and cause lots of drama and I will NOT be involved in it. All that he say/ she say is a little too corny for me. Alot of girls talk all this "I dont run with girls, they talk too much." No, idiot, people talk too much. Boys do it too *if not more.*

Ya kno somethin' else I noticed about people. They like to tell all their business then get mad when everyone knows. I keep tellin niggas... these people are NOT ur "friends." Sometimes you have to know who you can and can NOT tell certain things to. (Don't tell me cuz chances are, I dont care. Unless its like some suicidal issues. THEN and ONLY THEN will I care) Well, all I can really say is experience is the best teacher. "Fool me once, shame on u. Fool me twice, shame on me." Stop making "donkeys" outta yaself.


-The End



Seems like that thought jus came out the blue right? lol. I was just observing behaviors and relationships ppl have with one another and it all just dawned on me lol. Hey, I miss my Mo Mo. Okay beat it kidz.

Memo!!

Wow... people actually do read this stuff lol. As far as this LOVE thing goes, i did not mean RIGHT NOW. lol. One day... not today. Im not ready. Im having 2 much fun being single.

"The Bachelor" --> Falling in love

So, I was watching "The Bachelor" and for the first time I saw myself in someone else. Many of you may know Moanna from the show. She was one who had the most difficulty in opening up to Travis. Afraid of being hurt she stayed in her shell. Once she gave this man all she ever had and became so vulnerable she recieved the ultimate smack in the face when he chose sarah over her in the final episode.

Moanna = Me.
Of all my friends there are very few who has not experienced this great joy of being in love. I guess I kind of blame myself for this. I never have opened up to any male I've ever been with. I've been too afraid of rejection. I mean, when I open up to someone, I too become vulnerable and at risk for hurt. Rejection hurts the most when your heart is in it. That has to be my greatest fear. REJECTION. So I guess I may have turned guys off because they may have expected more from me or wanted more and I just couldn't give it. I want to give it. I want someone there to love me as much as I love them. I want to be able to love someone with all my heart. I want to know what it's like to be in love. I just find it extremely hard to open up fully to someone. Maybe I'll meet the perfect guy who can teach me how to love. Show me what love is. This is my hope.

Valentines Day

Yea so technically speaking, yesterday was valentines day... big whooop! I've been called a hater and bitter several times by several people and I'd just like to give a big "HOP OFF ME" to all of you.

So we all went out to dinner right.... *why did i go? I knew I shoulda stayed my behind right in my room doing my homework*. So we go to LI to Don Juans. 1st of all, it took us like 20 mins to get seated. NO EXAGGERATION, almost 2 hours to get our food. We sat next to a constantly opening and closing door making it highly uncomfortable and cold. The waiter... knew what he was talking about... THO! And to make matters worse, the NIGGERS i came with all nice & left me to pay off the rest of the bill. Horrible experience. But you know what I say, experience is the best teacher. I've been taught alright.

Im extremely irritated and bored outta my mind. Good Night

Simply Today...

Today was a good day. No drama. Just smiles.

• Fashion Show Tryouts *Boy did i KILL IT! lol*
• "Stroll Show" in Montgoris *Kinda wack but nonetheless, I enjoyed myself*
• Finally finished reading "The Darkest Child" by Delores Phillips. *Wow is all i can really say. That book is filled with shocking and breath taking moments. I'd reccomend this book to all. Step outside of the the typical *hood novels* and read a ficitional tale full of substance

Well, Im off to bed. Peace.

CSA Dance Troupe

Soooooo we have an audition tomorrow at NBC Studios for 106 & Park's "wild out wednesdays." We had to come up with a name to use. We came up with "Hundred Proof" which basically means the outstanding/the best... I like the name. I think it has a cool ring to it for a dance group. Some people don't but dats wat we gotta stick wit and make it work. Nehoooooo, wish us luck. Seeeee ya! !! !

I thought I met the guy who had everything I was ever looking for
Sad to say, he came up short in other areas that mattered to me
Since I couldn't change him I had to let him go


When it comes to matters of the heart, would u compromise who you are for the love of another or do u simply believe that if it was true love they should be accepted as they are.

I personally believe that if changing for this person puts you in an awkward position and you feel as if changing will jeapordize your true self, then it is best that the two not be together. I wanted him to change because I thought it would be for the better. My best isnt always the best for another.

Question

What happens when you finally get a hold of something and u have to struggle to keep it? Do you let it go and say "well, its not worth the fight" and find something new or do you endure it because it is worth the fight?

... Thats something i ponder everday of my life and I'm leaning towards just letting it go for good.

Boys....DOGS!!!!

I want to begin this particular blog with this famous quote. All women know this one...
"Men Are Dogs!"

After a short discussion with my roomie (Aids-dae)... I've come to the conclusion that majority of men are in fact animals. Monogamy isn't even a part of their vocab. I personally feel that they should all go to Mars, screw eachother, and get Aids and die! All the good ones who believe in commitment can stay. I truly don't get it. If you say you love someone, why is it so hard to just be with them and them alone? If you find something better just end the other relationship. Cheating hurts much worse.

No, I am not a victim but i know many girls who are. Don't get me wrong, there are some shady chicks in the world as well (i know this)... but this kind of behavior is most common amongst the male gender. Why?? If any men can answer this for me, I'd be more than happy to listen


Good night

Education Blues :(

Okay so this is what it is. Im currently in my second year (last semester) of college right and I I'm still undecided. Im seriously growing more and more depressed every time I think about it. I just want to do something that i enjoy doing. Now that I'm looking at my life there are so many things I could have done differently. I guess I'm just afraid of taking chances. Now im stuck in an institution where I cant find anything to do. I should have utilized my talents and skills *art, hair...* instead of trying to do the "RIGHT" thing. Making money is great but what happens when I'm just very unhappy *kinda like I am right now*???? I really have no clue about what to do and im just very unhappy with the way things are looking right now. The only thing I can do right now is pray about it...

Dear Lord,
I first would just like to say thank you for life health and strength. Thank you for keeping me and my family daily. Forgive me for not doing what I should have been doing. Lord in the name of your son Jesus I ask now that you lead and guide me. Give me direction. Give me what to do. I ask that u order my step in your word. Please help me in my future career *whatever that may be*... I ask that you help me to decide what is right for ME. I love you and thank you. I have faith that you will come through for me.
These things I pray in Jesus' name,
Amen.


*Don't pray & worry*
J. Moss (great song for inspiration right now)

Introduction

My name is Chaunna Michole Henry. I was born June 10th, 1988 in Brooklyn New York. I grew up for a little while in Jamaica, Queens with my grandmother, Joyce Brown, who passed away. *I miss her*... My mother moved to Hempstead, Long Island soon after my father passed ( He was murdered in 1989. Crazy right?) I'm guessing her intentions were to start life over with my brother and me. Long Island has been really good to me. Here is where all my success and memories took place. I met some of my best friends here. Had my first boyfriend here. First kiss *lol*... alot of things happened here.


Lets jump to where I am now. Im currently 17 years old. I currently live with my mother, step-father, brother, step sister, and her daughter. (I have 3 other step sisters and 2 step brothers). I was raised in a Christian church (my faith keeps me going)... My step-father is the pastor of my church. *You should come visit one day.* I attend St. Johns University and am in the process of completing my 2nd year here. Wonder how??? Long story. Lets just say I did what I had to do to get here and worked hard to get here.


My purpose for starting this blog primarily is to somehow express my feelings minus the pen. Im in the part of my life where Im changing everyday. Soooo, from this blog on It wil primarily tell the story of the future, things im going through, things im feeling, my thoughts... that kind of thing. Hope you all enjoy my stories