P.G. County by Connie Briscoe

Due to excessive BOREDOM at my job today, I read this novel in one shot. It was a pretty good story line. The story of the lives of 4 different women living in prominient areas of P.G. County (Some wealthier than others). Lots of lies, scandals, adultery, and drama. The book was entertaining and suspensful for the most part. As it concluded you kind of wished something ELSE was happening. It ended a little dryly, if u will. I thought it could have ended ALOT differently. Hell, I had some ideas in mind. Nonetheless it was a fun book to read to pass the time.

Side Note***

Why is it that every SINGLE novel I've read the author is the "bestselling?" Im sure they can't ALL be in that category. Somebody is lying!

AND I THOUGHT MY LIP GLOSS WAS POPPIN' LOL

The Fall Heard 'Round the World

So, as we all know by now, Beyonce' took a nice great fall at a concert in Florida while performing her not so much of a hit single "Ring the Alarm." I heard the story of how she fell face first after tripping on her lengthy "Matrix" styled trench coach but ain't nothing like seeing it for yourself. So I googled it, most videos were taken down at the artists' request. However, I did come across a few that were still up and running. When I saw that fall I immediately began to laugh uncontrollably. I don't know if I laughed that hard because she fell but I think Michelle's fall on 106 & Park had a little something to do with it. Now, I'm just waiting for Kelly to fall into a pit of some sort during a Destiny's Child "Survivor" Camping Retreat.

:-

Unforgivable

"Can I spend the night? And for two weeks straight!?!" lmaooooooooo



WARNING: Very explicit in content and language

Have you ever met someone who had all of the world’s possibilities lying right at arms length but wouldn’t take hold of them? Have you ever met somebody who wanted some things so bad but never chased the desires of her heart because of fear? Have you ever met someone so afraid to try and succeed? That person is me.

I’m petrified of the future so I cling to the presence and marvel at the past. Things were simple back then. Things weren’t so complicated. It was a time when good things just came to me. Now that I’m older, things aren’t always handed to me. I have to go get them.

My fear is not that I am insufficient but that my sufficiency is far beyond my expectations. It’s quite oxymoronic I think.

I’d also like to just say that I am highly favored by the Lord b/c I’ve gotten so far in my life at such a young age and not because I deserved it all of the time. I didn’t have to work so hard to get to where I am now. Everything was easy for me and I thank GOD for His unmerited favor upon my life.

Anyway, I guess its time for me to gain some confidence and get in the game and stop watching everyone else play.

[Help me Lord]

- Preferential and Insecure

PHOTOS by me

There is nothing particularly special about the majority of the photos I take. I take random photos day to day of things I just would like to visually remember and I'd like to share some of them. I didn't bother tagging my name on any of them b/c I just don't think its necessary. Enjoy :)

This photo was taken in the darkroom at my school. The photo inside was one of my favorites. It was of a bruised and battered girl... below are two pictures of the make up I did to make her eye look black. It looked so much hotter in print! Unfortunately I lost alot of my print photography which is alot more fun to do. Sooooo. I'll make up for it.

This photo below is a picture OF a picture I did for a photography class. Ummm, this was a print photography blk/white class. I liked it.

WHORE

whore /hɔr, hoʊr or, often, hʊər/ Pronunciation Key - Show Spelled Pronunciation[hawr, hohr or, often, hoor] Pronunciation Key - Show IPA Pronunciation noun, verb, whored, whor·ing.
–noun
1. a woman who engages in promiscuous sexual intercourse, usually for money; prostitute; harlot; strumpet.


Should I pride myself in knowing so many?? (I say this in the most sarcastic way possible)

GROW UP!

Wat the hell is wrong with people? I've been nothing but nice to everyone and I always seem to get the short end of the stick. Straight disrespect. I've been talked about, lied to, and everything else in the book and managed to let it slide. There's going to come a time when the grace period ends and I get really ugly! (figuratively speaking)

Are people just bored and wanna be in sumthn?I swear it seems like people wake up looking for something negative to get into. Lets see... Im a year away from graduating from college and my peers act worst than high school students. I never even went through any of this crap in High School. GROW UP! I don't have time for all of that he say she say, lying to cover my tail, soap opera drama.

And it seems to me that people also cant seem to think for themselves. Definitely not the kind of people I need to be around. I like my friends to have opinions.... their OWN! There's nothing worst than a lukewarm person. Dont know if they're hot or cold.

So basically, here's the verdict... Im not dealing with this nonsense post Summer 2007. Im just not. If you act greasy, I just wont speak to you. Liars are automatically deaded. All that gossip... save it for someone else. Its just never that serious for me to keep all that negativity around me and be involved in CRAP. Its not necessary nor is it wise.



[oil & water just dont mix]

So a guy recently asked me this... "So what do u look for in a guy?"
I said... "A whole lot!"


Someone (usually someone who aint even tryna get with me) always asks me this question. I guess they all wonder why Im always single. Well, for one, IM PICKY PICKY PICKY; 2, Im not a good girlfriend. I guess I learn how to be one later in life. Don't get me wrong, Im a GREAT girl, but I just know how to be a "lover," if u will. Not yet at least; 3, too busy and need to focus all my attention on keeping money in the bank and knowlege in my head.


But back to basics... what I look for in a guy! Well okay... I guess I'll just list some of the qualities of my "perfect guy"

1. Taller than me. (that would be lovely)
2. Well kept. (Low neat cut ::ceasars only... no fades n stuff:: or neat braids. Either is fine)
3. Sneaker Head. A guy in great sneakers is always sexy PLUS PLUS PLUS
4. Not too flashy! I hate big chains, big watches, ed hardy, rhinestones, etc. Just iron your clothes and make sure they fit!
5. Humorous. (If he can make me laugh he's good money)
6. Spiritual. (Please know and like Jesus. Im not asking for a preacher here but at least LIKE Him)
7. Intelligent. (There is nothing more I hate more than a man who cant talk to me about nething else except girls, sex, and money... beat it! A good mind is a turn on)
8. Honest. (Do I even have to say anything? If Im not pleasing you, please leave me and just be with her. To do it behind my back will only result in two funerals and I'll still be here to tell the story)
9. Respectful. (Disrespectful men are the worst! And God forbid he puts his hands on me in a way I DONT like! hmmmph!... we ain't going there)
10. A License (I dont have one right now and aint no subway comin to LI. I mean its not a necessity but that would be nice)
11. Talent!!!! (A singer, A dancer, A poet, A photographer, A muscian... SOMETHING!)

Now I dont go walking around with a list handing them out tryna find prince charming cuz I know the ONE may not posess all of these qualities but dammit he's got 10 of 11. lol.

How well do YOU match up?

Didnt meet the mark huh? lol

Am I too demanding? Honestly!.... Yeah, I dont think so either lol.

ThePerfctMisfit (5:03:46 PM): i like that
ThePerfctMisfit (5:03:49 PM): nice n stolen
m i s z dymondz3 (5:05:38 PM): lmao
m i s z dymondz3 (5:05:41 PM): worddd
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:01 PM): speaking of "word"
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:10 PM): chris n i were having a covo at our jobless job
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:11 PM): today
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:25 PM): discussing the many slang terms that have existed
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:33 PM): baffled by how they came about
m i s z dymondz3 (5:06:30 PM): here we go...
ThePerfctMisfit (5:04:53 PM): if you take websters definition and the slang definition and use of the word u wonder "what the hell" "how the hell"
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:07 PM): for example
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:11 PM): "word up"=
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:29 PM): used to express agreement, truth, etc.
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:36 PM): "yo that party was great"
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:38 PM): "word up"?
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:40 PM): -?
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:48 PM): word + up...
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:49 PM): hmmm
ThePerfctMisfit (5:05:57 PM): word = our vocabulary
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:43 PM): listen
ThePerfctMisfit (5:06:01 PM): there are MANY words
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:47 PM): it makes sense
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:48 PM): shut up
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:54 PM): SHUT UP
ThePerfctMisfit (5:06:10 PM): lmaooooo
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:57 PM): im bout to explain
m i s z dymondz3 (5:07:58 PM): word
m i s z dymondz3 (5:08:02 PM): up
m i s z dymondz3 (5:08:32 PM): when you speak....you are speaking words....when something that is spoken so true...it needs to be uplifted....you get word up
m i s z dymondz3 (5:08:35 PM): thank you
m i s z dymondz3 (5:08:38 PM): (takes a bow)
ThePerfctMisfit (5:07:43 PM): LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

A closet full of clothes and we say we've got nothing to wear. Some of those clothes still have tags on them. Someone on the other side of town has 1 coat & 1 pair of shoes. The next time you think of complaining about having "nothing to wear" CONSIDER THIS

Soooooooo Yeah. All Im gonna say is to do unto others as you would have them do unto you. Point blank period. The bible is my foundation for right vs. wrong. PERIOD! The bible told ME (mi nah kno bout you) that I should love my neighbor as I love myself, give unto the poor, feed those who are hungry, etc.
I've done all that and I've just realized that even though I do all the GOOD to other people that I can, it wont always be reciprocated. I used to get mad about it but tonight I found that just because other people dont always give back to me the way I give to them has NOTHING to do with me as a person. I've done my job and GOD will deal with those who blatantly do wrong by not only me but others as well.


*Note to self:
Fool me once, SHAME ON YOU
Fool me twice, SHAME ON ME!

Its okay to play the fool. Just don't play it TWICE!

Its soooooooo close...

...GRADUATION that is!

I really can't believe I have ONE more year to go before Im out of college!!! I mean everything went by so fast. Im a little scared to be honest. For me, its kind of like ... okay, I graduate and then what? I dunno where Im going, what I want. Im just sorta "goin' w/ the flow."

Anyways... Me being 19year old senior? lol. That sounds dope for real. I guess I never realized how ridiculously young I was until I suddenly became the only one in the crew under 21. See now THAT's WACK! But I guess being young, privileged, gifted, and black has its perks. Yeah, I like to toot my own horn. I deserve it! lol

MIA-YO 5/23-5/30

My 1st trip to MIA. It was pretty good. There were some "bad times" but overall it was a greatexperience and 8/10 I'd do it again. The concert was AWESOME!!!!!! Movado ROCKED! (Anywayyyyeeeeeeee). I stood in dirty sand for like 6 hours just to see this guy! I got into ALL the clubs I went to surprisingly cuz Lord knows that ID looked NOTHING like me lol. And I got real tipsy for the 1st time in life! lol. I dunno if I'll be doing THAT again. I ate good, went to the beach... it was just relaxing to get away from NY for a little while. But Im home now... Home sweet Home.

Nike Co Jp Plum Dunk

What a blow to my balls!!! I really thought they were MINE!!! I was misled. I thought the listing said 6.5 W ... I was wrong. Oh well. Maybe next time.

MY STUDY POEM LOL

From JUMP I was never all that studious.
9/10 u could find me chillin on my maximum gluteus
or rather my gluteus maximum
Why I wait so long to study is something I often fathom
Can't really understand it
Good grades, it was demanded
from my mother and others and of course, I always had to outshine my brother
I knew about this exam two weeks ago!
Now I’m up all day, with this book in my face, this sh*t is a disgrace
Terrified of failure yet I claim to be a rebel. SMH @ me. Procrasination is the devil.
So before u go to bed tonite, take some time to pray, and ask the MAN UPSTAIRS to help me get an A!

LOL. Im a loser. I made that up during finals week.

I WOULD LIKE TO APOLOGIZE

TO ALL OF MY FRIENDS AND PEOPLE I'VE RECENTLY MET. I HAVE A CONFESSION TO MAKE. I AM A DECIEVER. I'VE BEEN WEARING PADDED BRAS TO MAKE MY BREASTS LOOK LARGER. I AM SORRY
- THE ILLUSIONIST

Can I Talk My ---- Again!?!?!

1. I shall never be the sideline hoe!
2. She may be his number 1 and I may be his number 2 (or 9) but please believe he may never get his but i'll always get MINE! He never even fell into numerical category on my list so wat does that make him? (in the voice of the dude on the takeover track) LAMMMMMEEEEEE
3. A good man is hard to find but I can always find some good fried chicken up the block!
4. Im a P I M P. A good one, but a PIMP nonetheless.
5. Sensative boys make me sick. Pull ur skirt down and learn to take a hit, b*tch!
6. U all are so materialistic and its not even cute. Without ur gucci ur nothing. U dont kno Louis but he owns you. And can everyone get off Kelis and Pharell now? Ur milkshake is lumpy and U can't possibly be sk8board A thru Z
7. Burn all sk8boards in NY period. Mad cracks in the street! Where are u going!?!? This is NOT the bay
8. Im jus running my mouth, don't mind me. lol

Ayo School is really almost over. Ask me why I've been on chapter one since this morning and it is now 7:16pm. Talk about procrastination. I'm sitting here writing senseless and utterly pointless blogs about much of nothing lol. I bet you I'll still pull a B in the class! RIGHTEOUS!

Ima go listen to some Little Brother and Lupe and possibly take a shower cuz Im starting to FUNK ya dig!

BYE BYE JUNIOR YEAR

WOW... This really blows my mind. Im still 18 and Im a couple days away from being done with my Junior year in college. Sometimes I can't even believe it. Its not like im so rare case of a genius or anything so its like ... God must have had a reason why he gave me such favor amongst teachers my entire life.

However, lets talk about how my grades for this semester. Well, they all are looking like As and A-s except my JOU course. First of all. I already lost 10% from not doing this meeting story that was given to us so last minute! He says we can make it up and make a difference in the grade since the majority didnt do it. AND we had TWO teachers. One taught print newswriting the other taught broadcast. Broadcast was TEREEEEEBBBLLLLAAAYYY!!! (thats just my way of saying terrible). That professor has YET to give me anything over an 85 on ANYTHING I've done. She really made me feel super stupid. Im curious to see my grade for that class.

Enough about my depressing grades. Overall this year was an experience. A rather good one. I moved into a nice little apartment w/ some nice roommates. Disagreements here and there but overall the experience was great and Im looking forward to doing it again in the Fall. I grew away from some people, had a couple of fall outs, had a couple haters but all of that couldnt outweigh the good. I met some new people and I'm sooooooooo glad I met some of them. They added to my life positively.

[DOH CARE: COLLEGE CLASH PARTY]

[binghamton '06]

The parties were dope, the burdens were light, I had a job so the kick game was right lol.

Jus playin, it rhymed so I said it lol.

[BLACK MUSIC FEST '07]

[SNEAKER PIMPS '06]

Overall it was cool and I'll remember it. MIAMI is next. Im soooooooo digging it.

MEN... if u cant live with him u sure can live without him

"Love has not always been so lovely
So many lonely nights and wet pillows
At the end of the road it all hurt so badAll hurt so bad
So many heartaches
So much painIt all remains the same
I've never been enough for one man
Never been pretty enough
Never been cool enough
It always remains the same
I've never been good enough for one man
Maybe I just need to be alone
I can't hurt myself
I can't not be good enough for myself
The heartaches make so many scars inside
I'm so bruisedIt all hurts so bad
But it all remains the same
The facts aint never gonna change"


I saw that in a friend's away msg on AIM. The sad part is I'd say at least 50% of the females on my buddylist seem to convey the same message night after night after night. My question is... why do we let men have that much power over us when it comes to love and relationships. We spend our nights crying while he's catching up on his beauty rest. I say... CHEER UP AND GO SHOPPING! The man who is worth your tears wont make you cry! Never feel like you aren't good enough just because that fool can't see a GREAT thing staring him right in his ugly face lol. Men are blind until maybe hmmmm age 30 lol. Let them walk in darkness if they want to. There are to many fish in the sea to try to attain the stubborn one who just wont catch the bait!

~toodles~

LOVE LIVE LIFE